So much for my promise to keep up to date with my blog.
I think this has to do with the fact that I can't upload any pictures to my Mac thus limiting me from telling the stories I want to tell. I really do enjoy pictures with my words.
As it stands, no photographs. Even my iPhone is on its last legs and won't speak to this Mac unless I wipe everything off of it. That's where Apple stuff truly blows. Technology, you're letting me down.
In seventeen more days, I'll be on a plane winging my way to Los Angeles. I can't believe that it's almost here. I should be up and around,getting busy sorting stuff out today but I'm not. I'm having a bed in, watching The Sopranos and craving pasta as they serve it on the show all the time! Django isn't making it easy as he's crawled in and is snuggling with me. I think I'm just going to enjoy this moment as I won't be having them for a few months; cuddle time with my kitty who is so beautiful. I must dedicate a blog just to him soon. The photos will definitively be necessary for that one as he is a sight to behold.
The weekend has landed once more. Sin de la semana. I'm glad this one has nothing really planned-no real 'have to's'. I'm enjoying getting older and embracing quiet times and solitary comfort. I feared both of these for so long. Being alone was a state that never sat well with me. My greatest of all fears was rejection and strangely enough, it's something I don't worry about anymore. To quote a song line from Sinead O'Connor; "The whole time, I'd never seen/All I needed was inside me." There's a joy and blessing in getting older. Why waste time,energy and money trying to look younger? No amount of botox or fillers can fix it unless you want to look like a freak. Youth comes from inside and no amount of money can buy that.
So, this chica is going out on a huge limb. Many have asked if I'm scared about my trip. Others have commented on how brave I am. I don't know if I'm either. This trip is definitely pushing me way beyond my comfort zone but that's the whole point. People do buddhist retreats, yoga retreats, spiritual retreats. This journey is my meditation,my Vipashna,my prayer and my salute to the sun. I know I'm going to be in situations where I will be scared,alone,frightened,confronted and challenged. I'm not focusing on these things. I am thinking about adventure,food and the people I will meet. I don't want to focus on pick pockets, crime and other things that do occur in some of the places I'm going to. I figure as long as I come home alive and in one piece, all will be well!
I've lived so long in a deep well of negativity and depression. Of fear and loathing. What could be worse than that?
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